Monday, December 31, 2007

Mending A Broken Heart

One year ago today I was in the middle of my fourth miscarriage. Scott and I were feeling pretty hopeless last New Year's Eve. Fifty-seven days into the new year, we got some really good news - I was pregnant again. However, November 7 was a long way off.


When I was 5 weeks pregnant I was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes. While in the hospital being treated for that, I started bleeding. I was pretty sure I was losing another baby. After three days I was discharged and went home to wait. For an end to my seventh pregnancy. At 7 weeks, while still bleeding, I saw my obstetrician. On the ultrasound we saw a tiny little heartbeat. I tried not to get my hopes up - we had seen baby hearts that stopped beating before.




The bleeding continued, but so did the pregnancy.


At 22 weeks, our baby was given a scary diagnosis of a serious congenital heart defect. Because of this, during my pregnancy I had lots of ultrasounds, so we saw that amazing heart beating many times.

That little heart, with all its imperfections, belongs to the baby girl who makes her mama's heart whole.



"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11


2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Somehow the written word is so much more powerful than spoken. Thanks for sharing.
Mary is a blessing to all.
She is a powerful reminder of God's blessings and love for us. And also of our limitless capacity to love.

MaPi said...

i love you. I have tears in my eyes. The shot of you with mary laying on your chest is soooo sweet. God Bless!